Yay for Friends...

who make me happy!

So, today, there is a kitchen sink and until about 3 p.m. there was no faucet. I ended up doing 2 batches of dishes because there hasn't been a faucet since Thursday. (I am now with faucet thanks to Curt and his Dremel) Thank You Honey-buns. ANYWAY! Construction on the house was on my mind as well as thinking about some of my friends.

As for my friends, I LOVE watching people and how they interact with each other. I has been a people watcher for most of my life. I sometimes see things in friends that I admire, and sometimes I see attributes, that I have to ask myself "Oh, no, do I do that?" I can tell you more about some people than they can tell you about themselves... But, they make me a better person.

I think it is funny that my friends from my childhood are still my best friends and we call each other about once a month and see each other just as often. I ran into one of them last night at "RA" and was thrilled to see her. My other best friend is from college and called my the other night because she met a boy! I have such loving feelings for them and keep them in my prayers nightly. When they hurt, I hurt. When they tell me their troubles there is no "Glad it's you, not me" and I love these women dearly. If they needed my kidney, I'd be there! If they needed my heart, they already have it.

But on the whole, I like most of my aquaintance/friends. Some of them I wish thought of me as much as I pray and think on their trials, hardships and joy! I would like to be closer to them, but feel as though they judge me based on the fact that I don't have a house just a townhome, that I had to work for so many years, and 2 kids are older than theirs, even though Hayden is the same age. I just feel judged! I offer to be the first that they call when they need me to help with something, and feel that I get forgotten in return, other than when help is wanted.

I guess that I am like every human being when I find out that someone has thrown a party and I haven't been invited that I kind of throw myself into an everyboy-hates-me kind of funk or a I-thought-I-was-a-better-friend-then-so-and-so kind of attitude. I had my feelings hurt when I found out a friend had BBQ'd and it seemed that everyone was invited but me and my family. We don't get invited to a lot of things, so that when I found this out, it really hurt my feelings. I sat there thinking that there is something wrong with me and my family. Then gave that friend some doubt. I know that they can't invite everyone... It would just be nice to be invited sometimes.

Some of the time it's more of the fact that I worked for so many years while some of my friend's groups were formed that I feel like I am forgotten.

I went from working in an office where there are 50+ adults to an awesomely onery, shock-blond haired kid and it has been a hard adjustment! Friends have made the difference in me learning how to be a good mom and how to raise (correct in the case of Aaron and Alyssa) my children.

I love when people call, stop by, or acknowledge that I am a person that exists. I love to be invited anywhere even when I can't make it, the thought matters more than anyone will ever know.

Bummed...

I am totally bummed. Does everyone have problems with their in-laws?
I was asked a question on a site that had me thinking. "Do you like your in-laws?", it was a fair question. I wasn't sure how to answer. I have some of the same issued with my family, but not quite as bad, but...
I feel completely left out of my husbands family. When there is something going on, I get an e-mail in a mailbox that I really don't check that often. I have let them know to send it to the other, but nobody seems to care.
We have talked about moving to another state, like seriously moving! We have been told that it is horrible to not have family around you! Nobody recognizes that we are IN-state, so why would anyone care if we moved to the other side of the country?
I thought that if I started a blogpage (private) for the family, they would be excited. I think that we could be closer and more involved in each other's lives. We'll see how that turns out.
We usually don't get invited to anything in the family, we just find out how much fun they had afterward.
For Mother's Day, Curt called his mom and she told him to call back later, because they are having dinner, but when "sister" calls, she drops everything including dinner to talk to her for an hour or so.
Some of HIS siblings live in town and we never see them, talk to them and we are made to feel unwelcome to share in any part of their lives. I talk/email his sister that lives in Utah more than I see/talk/email anyone else.
Curt has quit asking his mother for advice, because everytime, he gets a "pray about it", like he already hasn't, it probably doesn't apply and she doesn't really care about whatever he is talking about. He says that he used to love talking to his mom and lately he feels as though there is nothing to say.
I really don't think things are supposed to happen like this, is it? Is there something that we are missing out on? Are we really that bad?

WOW! What a speech!

I think that there are some really amazing videos that I am fortunate to run into... This is one that I thought was pretty creative, I am not sure if I could have figured this out without the subtitles.