An Update.

My surgery date is set. It's April 7th, but we aren't sure what time.

Curt and I are still questioning this surgery and it's mostly when we are tired. I wake up and feel such peace at the decision. I have prayed and prayed for and answer. I have had conflicting feelings. When I talk to others about the surgery, I feel at peace and am reminded of the pros of this. It's when I am alone and like I said before, tired that I start to doubt.

There is peace in knowing that I have a husband by my side who has started to support this decision and that he isn't disappointed by not having more children. It's nice to know that he loves me and is willing to give me a blessing before hand (I have given him notice, so that he will have time to prepare. He needs to prepare and think on what to say. That's just the way he is.)

He is also removing my fallopian tubes, so this should be interesting. I will be home and in bed for a few days and so I may need some help with Hayden and the other kids. Don't be surprised if you get a call from me asking for assistance. No, It's not going to be of the "Help... I've fallen and I can't get up" sort of help, mroe like "I have a 2 yr old who is bouncing on me and it really hurts!"

I have 2 lasagnas, 2 stuffed shells and 1 manicotti dinners in the freezer, so I feel prepared in that way. Yay!!!!

I can't wait to be able to clear my house of the baby items. I have at least 5 boxes of clothes that Hayden no longer fits. We can move on and get rid of the playpen, the bassinet, and all of the bottles!

We'll let you know how this all turns out.