Alright, ladies. Here's the lowdown.
I'm FAT! (Usually this is the "F" word in our home, but I'll excuse it just this once.)
Little Old Ladies (LOLs) in the corner: (What?!?!? Can you believe she just said that? She's not fat. Well, yeah, she kind of is, but that's rude to tell her. Quick, let's find something nice to say about her...)I'm FAT! (Usually this is the "F" word in our home, but I'll excuse it just this once.)
What?
No, really... I'm a big gal!
LOLs: ( She really needs to quit saying that! Doesn't she understand that she's just "a little pooch-y". Her tummy's not that big. I've seen bigger.)
What I think that people don't understand the relationship I have with my overburdened scale:
* I have been dealing with my weight for
* I was a size 8 jean in high school, but because of my "busty" nature, I had to wear a size 12-14 on the top. I was still told I was fat because of this. I always had my mom make my formal dresses because I didn't fit right into store bought ones.
* Boys always liked my "busty" nature and it's been hard to separate the wheat from the chaff, so to speak... until Curt. It's a fringe benefit to him.
* No matter what I do, I am going to get this weight off, but it's going to be by my own hard work and effort. I put it on pound by pound, and that's how it'll be coming off.
* Gastric Bypass isn't for me (it's been great for others and I applaude them, because that's hard too!), LapBand might be, but let's try the other way first. I've done it before. I can do it again.
* I have a hard time running... because of said busty-nature. I bounce, nay, I "super-bounce" ( I deserve a cape or something). Therefore, I don't usually run in public. Maybe someday they will make a really great bra for me.
* I have back problems because of the "Bouncy Area". My chiropractor and I are working this out. Thanks Dr. Judge.
* I have a 20 yr reunion in 3 years. I want to be unrecognizable. (That's a word, right?) You know, "who's that with Curt, she looks a little familiar."
* Curt says that I am a "potato with toothpicks". This doesn't hurt my feelings. He loves my toothpicks. It's my potato that needs trimming.
* I love food. It's what makes me awesome. Will I lose my awesome-ness when I can't love it as much as I do now?
* I have always been jealous of women with a waist, smaller chest (C-D would be nice), and can wear jeans without the extra fabric hanging around their thighs. Jeans that are built for women with thighs + mine are indented = a lot of hanging jeans material = looks weird.
* I hate shopping. I can dress others but I can't dress myself. If I ask you to go shopping with me, please be honest. I don't want to think I look great while everyone is asking, "What was she thinking, going out in public looking like THAT!"
* I don't wear stripes... of ANY kind. Fat and Animal Prints don't mix either.
SO... in honor of going private, I am going to have some updates of how my weight loss journey is going, right over there, on the side.
I am off the hormones, for now, and so I have no reason to not lose.
Old Gym Mantra, "Why am I doing this, when the numbers won't change?"
New Gym Mantra, "Let's get these numbers movin' down!"
Old Gym Mantra, "Why am I doing this, when the numbers won't change?"
New Gym Mantra, "Let's get these numbers movin' down!"
I had a wonderful woman tell me that the best thing for a diet is to start it with a fast. I think Heavenly Father cares about my weight and my health. It will help me be a better mother, wife and friend.
Most of all, I'm doing this for me. Not Curt, the kids, my family, or even my friends. Just me. Because I love me, BUT I just want to love a-little-less of me.
5 comments:
Good Luck, I know you are amazing and you can accomplish whatever you set your mind to. I hope I'll see a lot of you at the gym!
You're amazing Shellee! You are very brave to put it out there, but you know what? It makes you real, human, and generally AWESOME!!! You go girl! You CAN do it!!
Good luck! I too would like to slim back to a thinner healthier me. If it helps, I too have a big bounce when running. Dan loves it, I don't. I recently found a great exercise bra. I think it's Danskin brand from Walmart. Decent price and it straps the girls down better. Another thought, I too (especially after 3 kids) hate the scale. I remember being told that you should measure your body parts you're wanting to target and write it down. Workout and remeasure each month. Sometimes you'll get better results from that than a scale. A little less discouraging, but still seeing results.
Sorry for the long comment, but hope something can work for you.
Good luck too you! :) I appreciate the super bounce comment, because I also hate to run... But I like your ideas.
my mom did the medifast and looks great
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